No Greater Love

They say your love is the greatest
An extension of the divine
Sweeping throughout the nations
Surpassing understanding of mankind 
It does not run out of patience 
Nor run out of time
Leaving the ninety-nine 
To go after the lost one
It leaves no one behind 

They say your love is the greatest
A mender of broken hearts 
Restoring and healing 
In Christ, giving us a new start
Your grace revealing 
How unmerited and unconditional it is
To be loved by you
The thought of it like a sweetened kiss
Oh I don't deserve it
But you call me your own
A Bridegroom coming back for his bride 
Only to you I belong

They say your love is the greatest
Because you gave your life for mine
So teach me to love
Like that great love of the divine 

For as long as I could remember I believed this lie about myself that I never shared with anyone until recent. This lie made me believe that happiness with other people was impossible, that love did not exist and it certainly did not exist for me... I embraced a lie that told me I did not deserve love, that it wasn't for me and because of that I felt like I was incapable of loving and/or receiving love.  This was of course from the enemy and he used my circumstances at the time to plant and grow this lie. It was hidden so deep down within me that I was not even aware of it but I always knew something was off. 

I started to believe that I deserved less than what I was worth, which made me settle in a past relationship. It effected my way of showing love, as my own father even asked me one time if I loved him! I was bad and still am bad at vocally expressing my feelings. I realized that not only was I denying the belief that others could love me but I was also denying the belief that the greatest representation of love could love me, which is the love of Christ. I didn't know it at the time that by denying love I was denying God because God is love. Without knowing, I closed myself off from God being able to work on my broken heart...

I embraced a lie that was brought on me to isolate me from my heavenly father who's love is everlasting, a lie that tried to tare me down, a lie that tried to steal my joy! Now, slowly but surely God is mending my heart because I have come to learn the truth... If you really read and meditate on God's words (the bible) it talks about his love and this is what I know: his love died for me, it will never run out, it does not change no matter what I do and no matter where I go he is with me. God is the good Shepard, he will truly leave the ninety-nine sheep to go after the lost one and I was so lost but he has restored unto me the love, joy and peace that was taken from me. Through this experience I've realized just how important the love of God is! It is there for us to embrace but a lot of us deny it and then we wonder why we feel so empty or why riches or relationships cannot fill that void. 

The love of God sets us free from the bondages of sin, it gives us grace, mercy and a peace that goes beyond any understanding. His love, which is so rich and pure has redeemed me and any one who accepts it because through his love he has called us his own. He is knocking on our hearts and it's up to us to open up to him. I'm learning to completely surrender to him because I know that he sees me and wants to do a new thing in me. He has caught every tears I've cried over the past few years. My prayer each and everyday is that God teaches me to love like him and not like the world because love has a name and that name is Jesus.